If she calls i dont plan on talking to her at all... i been thinking bout it so much latley and im sick of being the 2nd man, the back up, the bored thing!. I hate this, i hate this feeling.. and im starting to hate her for this. she wouldnt be putting me through this if she loved me. You tell me you need time, You had 3 weeks! you tell me you love me but your doing nothing to make anything better. Its ME! all ME! im trying everything in my heart and soul to make me and you a better life and im sick of this ****. If you really loved me you wouldnt be sleeping with him, or going to the bahamas. You would be MY side and going out with me. You dont love me! its all a lie!. You know damn well that i would do anything for you and i would always be there but when you look back and im not there its your fault. You ran from love, you destroyed our love, and your the one who made me cry. You say i treat you bad and im too late to try? TO LATE!? its never to late when your in love, Hell it sounds crazy but when your happy no matter what your doing ... i feel happy. Just to know that your happy and your doing ok, And thats all i need to live the rest of my life without you. Im not sitting here anymore, and im not crying over you anymore. This is what you want? this is what you can have. When we were together and going out you were happy and you know dammn well. So if you want to go around sayin you arent happy and i treated you bad? go screw yourself. YOUR THE ONE WHO CHEATED ON ME !!! YOUR THE ONE WHO TRIED GETTING WITH MY BEST FRIEND!!! YOUR THE ONE WHO KISSED MY DAMN BROTHER!!!!!AND I FORGAVE YOU.... I ****ING FORGAVE YOU AND PUT IT BEHIND US!!!!!! IVE ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR YOU AND WITHOUT A QUESTION IN MY MIND AND THEN WHEN I NEED YOU YOUR NOT THERE SO WHO IS TREATING WHO LIKE ****? HUH!? You can tell your mom to piss off because if she dont like me then i dont care. I did everything for your family. I fixed your cars, fixed your computers, helped your dad get a job, helped your mom with money, watched your cats while you were in mich. even though u broke up with me!!! BUT ITS OK!!! CAUSE I FORGIVE YOU!!! EVERY DAMN TIME!!!!!!! AND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURN MEGAN? HUH? NOTHING.... I GET ****TED ON BECAUSE THATS WHAT YOU AND YOUR FAMILY DOES. Im sorry i dont have enough money for you, im sorry i cant take you to great places.... but i did everything i could without breaking my body. You sat there while my grandfather was dieing and told me you would be there always... MY GRANDPARENTS HATED ME BECAUSE OF YOU! THEY HATED THE FACT THAT I WAS ENGAGED AT YOUNG AGE BUT I TOOK IT IN THE ASS DRY FROM THEM JUST TO BE WITH YOU... AND THEN HE DIES AND YOU DO ME AS BAD AS YOU DID!?! I PRAY EVERY NIGHT FOR HIS FORGIVNESS AND ILL NEVER KNOW . ILL NEVER KNOW IF HE DIED HATING ME BECAUSE OF YOU! but you know what... im not going to be like you. Its not your fault for doing what you did, you did what you had to do to be happy. And i guess i cant ask for much more.... if your happy thats all i care about.. but while i sit here and cry typing my heart to the people at stangnet who accually care i want you to know one thing... you cant hurt me any more. For i have God and his love will ALWAYS be there...
sounds to me there is no "wedding"
